Wow. I cannot believe that a year has gone by since you passed away. It feels so fresh, but it also feels like a million years ago that we sat with you as we said our final goodbyes. I know you were in pain, and it was battle right to the very end, but thisContinue reading “Remembering the Little Things”
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Rewriting the Unhealthy Narrative
On this day, 6 months to the day since my father passed away, and 3 days away from what would have been…hell…should have been his 74th birthday, I’m not as despondent as I once was. I’ve reflected. I’ve cried. I’ve been angry. I’ve been resentful. I’ve been beyond depressed. I’ve read grief books. I’ve completedContinue reading “Rewriting the Unhealthy Narrative”
Getting Out of My Own Head
As I move into the 7th week of the 12-week Mindfulness program, I can honestly say that it is helping get me out of my own head. Even when I do slip into auto-pilot, I am aware of it and I start using the steps the program has taught me to bring me back toContinue reading “Getting Out of My Own Head”
Grabbing a Lifeline
I’m a huge promoter and supporter of self-care and self-love. But I am very much aware that there are some things “self” cannot do without some assistance at times. As you know I lost my father at the end of January this year, and to say that it has been difficult would not be givingContinue reading “Grabbing a Lifeline”
A Letter to Dad on My First Birthday Without You
Every year for the last 20+ years I have woken up on this day looking forward to and relying on that phone call from you and Mom with a heartfelt and embarrassing serenade of “Happy Birthday” first thing in the morning. You would both try so hard to be the first call, first birthday wishContinue reading “A Letter to Dad on My First Birthday Without You”
Embracing and Accepting the “Selfish” in “Self-care”
At face value, this statement can be quite unbecoming, but it isn’t exactly a blanket statement that applies to all the time nor to all self-care. But if you are anything like me, or at least how I think I am or hope I am (whatever), I spend a lot of time worrying about andContinue reading “Embracing and Accepting the “Selfish” in “Self-care””
My Eternal Adventure Angel
I finally got back to the trails this morning. Felt “normal” but also wrong because there really isn’t a normal for me anymore. As I listened to my playlist in one ear and the crunching of the earth in my other, I thought of what would normally happen after I wrapped up another hike ifContinue reading “My Eternal Adventure Angel”
Life after Loss?
Hmmm…what does that even look like really? I have no doubt my father’s loss will be with me forever, as it should be, but I’m struggling with what that looks like. The numbness is present most of the time but when it cracks I cannot stop the flow of tears and the guilt ridden thoughtsContinue reading “Life after Loss?”
Missing my Dad
It’s at night that the grief swallows me…or that I allow it to at least with little effort to stop it. I turn pages of photo albums to see the man you were before you became mine and cry tears of joy. And then see you as a father in those pictures with a twinkleContinue reading “Missing my Dad”
Making Yourself a Priority in Your Own Life's Story 